tonight

you cannot put me down just to pick me up when you want to.

i am saying this to myself too. i have done this.

everyone

everyone is having issues
debate: life would be boring without issues. but meanwhile this is
tormenting. truly. which would you rather have?
imu

cbgb

cbgb closed yesterday
why?

this morning

this morning i saw a mobile home on the street and it reminded me of
something this girl said to me when i was working at the paradise
pier.

i think i had been hired by the ritz and i told her that at the ritz
you can transfer easily to other hotels in different states/countries
and that i wanted to do that and see the us and the world. she said
maybe i should just get a mobile home since i wanted to be "on the go"
all the time and wasnt sure where i wanted to live. then i tried that
consulate thing cuz i wasnt sure where i wanted to live or what i
wanted to do.

i had forgotten that i had felt that way. it feels like so long ago.
when i said i was gonna go to law school i knew it was going to be
here in socal (to maintain jack relations) and at that point i knew i
was going to be here.

i guess my point is that i felt that way once too and now i dont
because i know where i am going to be for the next at least 5 years
and i know what im going to do for a profession.

i am replying to a mean girl on my blog

i was thinking the same thing yesterday, about you and about us
we've all hit a wall
now its time to climb over it

*to ml
im sorry for the late night call
im going to somehow get thru it w/o late night rantings