so i finally wrote a real piece. i wrote a travel memo for my fams for christmas. no one read it right there which was both a disappointment and a relief. i totally understand because i brought both a magazine and book to read in case and did not touch either because i was busy talking and eating and playing. my cousin cindy asked if i wrote the thing in her hands and i said yeah, but im not sure how good it is. but she replied 'oh' like surprised and pleased. i hope someone reads it. for the friends, youve heard all the stuff before so it will just be a repeat.

i won poker with the kids! didn't even try.

us news says you should meditate. im not sure i can just sit there and think about one word like 'peace' or 'om' over and over again. they said you can also concentrate carefully on how something tastes like your morning coffee. it tastes the same everyday, but i guess that is the point, you are to find amazement and tranquility in every day things. they also said the hardest part about it is sticking to it. tell me about it.

i visited my old work for the first time yesterday. i figure it was christmas eve and sort of an occasion and i happen to be there to pick up jon. it was actually nice, im glad i held off visiting. they kept asking me when im coming back. i said im not. gotta stick to it!

slightly off: just because we are always referring to mr. maybe, right now i guess i should be brooding over the fight but i am just enjoying talking to people on my cell and reading my book and magazine. like when libby is supposed to be thinking about the engagement with ed and insted she is just happy being on her own. i will think about it some more.